Here we are, deep into the fourth trimester. I wish I could say it's been slow, sleepy and spent mostly in bed - but that would be a lie. Such is the fate of a second child (and mother of two!).
Luckily we've found Fred to be generally calm natured. He's slotted in nicely to our small, toddler dominated space. Arthur's somehow found it in him to make some room for his brother, even asking me if Freddie can share his bed this evening (hard pass; too much risk of erratic kicking from both boys). I was worried about this dynamic; that my precious first born would feel ousted, that our firm routine would suffer, that our apartment would descend into a molten pit of dirty nappies, dirty dishes and disturbed sleep...and don't get me wrong, things have changed but here are my thoughts on how to have a calm, restorative fourth trimester with a toddler in tow:
Let go of any and all expectations
You have two children now - it will take some getting used to. When they both cry at the same time you will momentarily have no idea who to go to first. If you have a partner around - divide and conquer, if you don't - prioritise. I find everything generally goes better if I put my boob in Fred's mouth first. The situation immediately drops a couple of decibels and I'm able to tend to whatever Arthur needs (learning how to breastfeed while baby wearing really REALLY helped this one.) It doesn't look glamorous or Instagramable, you don't look glamorous or Instagramable and your apartment CERTAINLY doesn't look glamorous or Instagramable but the baby is fed, the overall volume of things has massively decreased and your first born is getting attention. That's a win in my books.
Nothing will look anything like you expected. Which is why you must...
Accept all offers of help
All of them. Including the things you thought you'd never accept. Like a long bubble bath at your mate's house while she holds the baby because you don't have a bath and your back is SO stiff from all that falling asleep upright.
Let your mother-in-law hold the baby, let your friend do your washing up, eat the cake that people bring you even if you're freaking out about the baby weight. Nobody will ever bring you baked goods over in such quantities with no judgement at how fast you eat them ever again. Take advantage.
Let the little things go
No. You don't need to mop the kitchen floor right now.
Yup. Your toddler can in fact watch Cars 3 for the second time this week and it will not kill him.
Who gives a sh** that it's dry shampoo? (I HIGHLY recommend H&M's dry shampoo.)
Cling to the structures that help
Having said all of that, if you have systems and structures that keep you sane already in place, cling to them. For example, I made an effort to shower & put my makeup and clean clothes on every day in the couple of weeks postpartum when you don't really feel like doing that. It helped me feel fresh on next to no sleep, prepared for the day with my kids and happy about myself. I also like my environment to be tidy - so I take at least 10 minutes a day to do a superficial tidy away of surface mess (hide it in cupboards). Do what works for you and don't apologise for it. Sometimes self-care is a reluctant shower and a speed clean.
Nourish and love your body
The big one. You just had a baby! Your body is incredible! Reward it with nourishing food, warm drinks, hearty soups, stews, casseroles and stir fry's. Hopefully some kind soul (or yourself) have filled your freezer with at least a couple of meals that take minimal effort from you and only require one hand to eat. Treat your body with respect and love - it's just given you the greatest gift and does not want to hear any "Snapping back" "Shedding the baby weight" bollocks the Daily Mail might want to throw at it - in fact, just step away from tabloid newspapers and "Women's magazines" altogether.
Finally, give yourself a massive hug. This mum stuff isn't easy, but you're going to be just fine.